Sunday, May 10, 2009
Alone.
I now know why I am alone. Because I sought to leave a world that many of my former peers could not, or were too content in to leave. It was never my intention to be alone, but I realize this sacrifice to breakthrough to the other side hurts me the most. The wound it has put on my ever-working heart, makes my soul weep in agony. Not just for the pain that comes from loneliness, but mostly from the fear that I will never truly be fulfilled in life. Not even close. A fear that my life history maybe be too unique to relate to anyone. To believe that one maybe destined for unhappiness, due to something as simple as a misunderstanding.... Once again, I am a victim of circumstance.
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No one has a life story that is too unique to realte to. We all have something to share with our fellow beings, we just have to work to figure out how to do that. These are just words, and are the upmost difficult to follow, but the reality we must be happy with ourselves and our lonliness in order to be happy with others. The people you see floating around, smitten in love, comforted by thier fleeting companionship are insecure, are, or in some time in thier life, or will be, as lonely as you. Don't apologize for the choices you have made or for being true to yourself, if you know you are doing the right thing, even if it leaves you to be alone. Thes best friendships, companionship, and mind-blowing love comes when the person is not looking. Focus on yourself, your work. Fulfillment never comes easy, and none of us ever really know if we will be fulfilled until we get there, and even then, it is fleeting and circumstantial. You have so much to offer, Don't deprive the world of it. yet ;)
You show me how ignorant I am emotionally. I can only blush.
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